This world is unbearable.

The only thing we can do is … to bear it.

A very difficult task. Some fail at the first exams. Then others like Bukowski say:

 

the best often die by their own hand 

just to get away,
and those left behind
can never quite understand
why anybody
would ever want to
get away 
from 
them

 

I understand Bukowski, but still there should be something you to stay here for. There should be somebody not able to lose that is left.

The reality seems to me like a plasticine – a quantum plasticine.

Before I used to see it like a quantum soup, but soup is too chaotic and it is a fluid.

It is clear that there are fluids running all over, but the influence on the plasticine reality is not that easy, especially for people like me that lack patience – it needs tenacity, pressure and certain skills.

As for the pressure, I still have some unsolved conflicts in me. I always wanted everything to be solved at a glance.    

I don’t like violence, but lately I started to understand that the world is going forward because of it.

The passive, so called “good” and “humble” could only hold the position that was conquered by the active “evil”.

The evolution is actually the interaction between the one and the other:  good and bad, active and passive,  violence and kindness,  male and female, etc. The struggle between the opposites that attract each other. Why they attract each other? What is this force that pulls them together?

A sort of magnetism?

Or just love?

Would anybody do something in this world if it is not for the sake of love?