A flute of reed

Honestly, I am going to forbid my daughter to get married. I strongly hope I won’t have to forbid her as she will think the same like me, but …. Who knows?

How things change in life, ah? From the strongest desire of woman – to see her daughter married, to the same thing being the most hatred one.

I know statistics show that people marry less and less nowadays, but my country and especially my town is still in the middle ages, so they don’t know about these statistics yet and the reasons behind them.

It is not only about heavy divorce taxes and property. It is much more about the big mistakes we make after we start thinking we have chosen a partner for a lifetime and way of life for a lifetime.

How pitiful we are! Nothing is for a lifetime. We have only us and only today. And if we are not here, today and can’t share our thoughts and feelings with our partner today we have nothing. Neither the signature on the paper at the day of our wedding matters, nor the promises we make to each other for the future.

So, I won’t forbid my daughter to live with somebody. I will encourage her on that. But I want to minimize the great expectations a wedding day is implying, the false sense of security the marriage gives and the risk of her husband taking her for granted. The marriage never grants love and affection, it much more often ruins them.

Moreover a human being needs some liberty to feel a human being. Love gives liberty, but not marriage. If you allow me to quote Benjamin Franklin, although I think he had something else in mind saying this:

“Those who would give up ESSENTIAL LIBERTY to purchase a little TEMPORARY SAFETY, deserve neither LIBERTY nor SAFETY. ”

Here are the simple facts:
1. I am a blogger.
2. I left my husband and I am trying to live with my daughter on one salary and I hardly succeed.
3. I need extra money and I need to earn them in the evenings and weekends preferably via internet.
4. I have created a PayPal account and did some research on internet on freelancing.
5. I found that there are possibilities, but as I am a beginner and I am living in Bulgaria, not in Western Europe or USA I haven’t got that many chances although I believe I have certain talents.
6. My only path to success is to prove my talents here, so that I can get different freelancing jobs.

Now I need to write an article, but I have difficulties in choosing topic.
Let’s try two different approaches:
1. I will grab a book from my shelf, open it on a random page, read a random word/phrase and write an article on it.
2. I will see what is bothering my mind the most in the last couple of days and will write an article on that subject.

So, I took a book from the shelf, opened it and … what I read you will see in the next post.

I was in the land of dead
And Hades was not guarding me.
I was staying on my own
No memories of the other world,
No connections to anybody.
The lonely business death.
I didn’t won’t to run,
I didn’t want to want
I didn’t feel.
It was not about resurrection,
Because before
It was not exactly … life.
He came,
He was at the birth,
Helped for the first steps
And now he holds me in his arms –
Naked, we breathe in harmony,
On our backs slowly grow
… wings …

Another Eurydice by Maya Angelova is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 2.5 Bulgaria License.
Based on a work at afluteofreed.blog.co.uk.